5 May 2018

The curious case of ‘shelldom’

You thought I was referring to Sheldon from TBBT and did a typo? Nah! I actually meant ‘shelldom’; there isn’t a word yet, I just framed it. 

Shelldom: noun The state of going into one’s shell. 
”If you ask him a lot of questions, he embraces shelldom“

For all these years I had no clue what it means to get into one’s shell. Of course I had a lot of friends who primarily were introverts, but I hadn’t experienced this state whilst at college or work. There are a lot of theories surrounding shelldom, but today I want to share what it feels when you are BFF with folks who believe or rather find solace in shelldom. 

When you meet them, you wouldn’t know. 
When you hang around with them, you wouldn’t know. 
When you cross that line is when you’ll know. It has been a huge concern to me off late; because I am left clueless when it happens. They are not responsive (my panic begins) they avoid every part of communication (my panic rises) and when there is almost no information about them (anxiety attacks happen) It starts with, am I the cause of concern, to how do I even help them; it is never about fixing them but about fixing the situation. No communication is the worst thing to happen to the mankind and especially for an extrovert, fiery arian (read me)

I’ve realised that is how creative people work; I am glad they do but when it is smeared with a layer of ‘there is an issue’ is when I find it extremely difficult to cope up with shelldom. Folks who follow shelldom never make you feel they are introverts, or their behaviour of extrovertism is played extremely well. They make believe them and how; so when the reality hits, it breaks the dreamy wall pretty hard. 

Their pre-phase of entering shelldom will be hard too, you will have to take sarcasm, blunt words and the most famous line ‘I was like this all the time, just that you did not know about it’. And when they arrive out of that phase, you’ve got to be normal, act normal and not dare talk about it, at all. I am going through this phase of someone dear to me embracing shelldom; I’am left clueless and while I am that, I chose to write. Because writing is my way of communicating, telling the person and the world how it is to be around them. 

Do you think consistent and continuous one-on-one’s with shelldom will make me follow it too? Or should I just go by, this too shall pass?

12 Apr 2018

A year at Paramvah Studios

Milestone posts are a thing these days. One year of that and five years of this; it amazes me that each year, people involved will have something new to share about the project. Isn’t that the milestone on its own? You wanting to tell the premise of the story, which is bigger than the story itself. Not in the wildest of my dreams did I think, I will be part of KFI; my father didn’t like me watching movies and my mom used to hide Friday newspapers. The guy I dated for six years was hell bent on entering the movie industry in ways other than acting and back then I used to feel it damn funny. I wondered why would anyone who is doing so well in life, financially want to change route to pursue movies. He was not even sure about what he wanted back then, but movies used to be 90% of our conversations. 

Did I ever feature myself being part of movies, choosing it as a career? Nope. While at it, I owe everything that I have today to one platform, twitter; my life took an amazing change because of twitter. I met amazing people and one among that is Rakshit. Initially it was just a fan interacting with an aspiring actor in KFI, he used to like my movie reviews and I used to love his way of treating people. I did not believe in stardom, crazy fans but I often found myself vouching for the boy; there hasn’t been a single birthday ever since I know him where my flowers haven’t reached him nor have I ever missed an opportunity to let him know what an amazing person he is. Two years to that and I found myself slowly handling his other fans via socials. 

Then something even more extraordinary happened; Rakshit started Godhi Banna and I met Hemanth Rao. Hemanth has been my pillar of support, ever since we’ve known each other. I obviously cannot write how and why, coz it could be the most trivial rant or the biggest blunder, this boy is always around to hear me out and most importantly give me a brand new perspective to the situation. Our first phone conversation went on for 3hours and I still do not have any clue about what was the take away from it. 

This post finds its way in the blog after a long time; because I complete a year working at Paramvah Studios today. I have an identity and I am very happy to have got to this stage, operating from tier 2 city and handling a lot of things without much of a travel. If you truly wish to do something, you somehow make sure it happens; location or distance doesn’t really matter and with people like Rakshit and Hemanth by my side, I wish to go a long way; with them :-) The best part of these guys and my team is that I have never been questioned on my productivity, the trust they have on me is exceptional. Special mention to Chan, my buddy and saviour and the connect at work. 

Signing off with my fav line “maaDalu kelasa nooraride saaguva daari doora”